November 10, 2010

Patience

I don’t talk about faith or religion much on here.  No reason really, it is a part of my life and who I am, I just haven’t spoken (written?) about it.  But  I did want to share this.

 

I’ve heard a lot of people say that they hear God talk to them.  And I’m always jealous.  Like, why doesn’t He talk to ME?  I ask Him questions all the time.  I need some answers/guidance/direction too!

 

A couple of weeks ago, I was driving to work and thinking.  Thinking about how I can’t wait for this or that to happen.  Specifically, I was thinking about how I can’t WAIT to move into a new house and how happy I’ll be and yada yada.  This is not a new thought, I think about this daily (or I did before this happened).  But this particular morning, as I was driving and picking out paint colors in my head, I heard a very distinct voice say “Patience”.  And I was stunned.  Did I just hear what I thought I heard?  God?  Talking to ME?!

 

And I just knew that’s what I heard.  I still remember it clear as day.  And since that day, that word, “patience”, has resonated with me a LOT.

 

I don’t exercise enough patience in , well, anything I do.  When dealing with people, situations, the current season of my life, I am never patient about any of it.  This is not a surprise to any of those who know me, and I know this about myself.  I DO try and work on it.  But it’s hard for me!  Why doesn’t someone understand things I think are simple?  When will I find a new job?  When will we get to move?  I’m the worst about appreciating where I’m at in life.  I’m always thinking to the next step instead of being content where I am.

 

I know that there is a plan for my life, and I try to trust that.  Being the Type A person that I am, it IS difficult to not know what’s going to happen in 5 days, let alone 5 years.  I get better about it every day, and I have already learned to trust that I will find a new job when the time is right.  I just need to have patience in wondering when that time will be.  And that goes for every area of my life.

 

So, I’ve been working on my patience.  And I’ve been working on trust, because I think the two go hand in hand.  And you know what?  It feels really good to let go and have that weight lifted, and know that really, it’s not in my control.  And, surprisingly, I’m just fine with that!  Maybe I have even learned to prefer it that way J

2 comments:

Ashley @ KiwisandCocktails said...

I am soo impatient too!!
I can relate to this statement " I’m the worst about appreciating where I’m at in life. I’m always thinking to the next step instead of being content where I am."
That is so great that you heard him and you have been working on it! :)

Kaitlin said...

Patienc: not one of my virtues either! I think it's hard to be sometimes with a baby- you're constantly waiting on the next "milestone," etc. Nice post, definitely makes one reflect on enjoying and living in the moment and letting life play out as it should :)