LOST: My desire to cook

Has anyone seen it? My husband might pay a hefty reward if you found it! Er...well, maybe not, as was evidenced by his request last night: "Can we have McDonalds tonight?" Haha. (For the record, my response was an eager "Yes, I don't want to cook!")

I don't know what my problem is. Maybe it's because nothing sounds good to me. Why would I want to cook if I have zero desire to eat the food? The foods I do desire to eat? French fries. That's pretty much it. Oh, and Twizzlers. Yep, that's about it. It's not morning sickness or anything like that. The thought of cooking doesn't make me want to go running for the nearest toilet or anything, like it did during the first trimester. It just sounds like a horrible idea. This is so foreign to me, since I really love to cook usually. (I also really love to eat usually, so not having the desire to eat anything is REALLY weird and I'm having a difficult time getting used to the idea, i.e. I have actually cried, real tears, because I knew that I needed to eat but I just didn't want anything!) I'm just hoping that this change will eventually go away. Even if it lasts the entire pregnancy, that's fine, just as long as it will come back after, because that would be really sad for me. I don't know how you people who don't like to cook do it, because right now, all I can think about it the fact that I promised Lee that I would make chili for dinner, and how much I just don't even want to make it at all. What would I rather have? Well, nothing comes to mind. Except maybe some waffle fries from Chick-Fil-A. But even that's pushing it :)

I've even been doing my regular holiday baking (begrudgingly, and only because some of our friends and co-workers have come to expect their annual treat box) and I haven't sampled one.thing. Not a cookie, not a pecan, not a piece of toffee, nothing. This is NOT normal! One second thought, maybe I should plan all of my pregnancies around the holidays if this is what happens. Yes, every other Thanksgiving and Christmas I will be pregnant. That way I won't gorge myself on pounds of sugar and chocolate during that time frame. Although I will still be gaining weight, so I'm not sure if that logic would really work.

I have been extremely busy at work this week (I know! I can hardly believe it myself!), and it's going to last until I leave for the holidays (my last workday of the year is Tuesday morning, then I'm off until the 2nd!) So I haven't really had time to blog lately, and now that I'm sitting here, I've forgotten all of the great blogging ideas I've had over the week! So, I'll just leave you with this, my 12 and 14 week bump pictures. I finally took one last week!

Week 12: Nov. 21-27

Week 14: Dec 5 - 11

And a totally gratuitous picture of Lee and the girls. Isabelle is smiling :) (Ahem, ignore the open shelves that we have yet to get doors for. It's only been 5 months since we finished those things)

Holy crap, 6 months is not that long!

I have posted a lot this week! Mostly random stuff, but still. I think it's mostly because I'm very bored at work. Want to know what I've been doing this morning? Staring at my first of seriously, at least 50 spreadsheets with 60,000 plus lines, looking for inconsistencies in numbers. Yes. I will need a new contact prescription by the end of next week :( Intermittently, I go to look at the new intercompany job postings, lol.

As I sit here, probably causing my eyes to age prematurely, I just keep thinking about everything that I really need to be doing instead! Don't you hate that? I have so many things that I really need to get done! But by the time I get home after work, I'm so exhausted that I just can't do it. Work is really a waste of my time :)

Yesterday I bought a Christmas/birthday present for my very best friend in the whole world. She has been having a rough time the past couple of months, and it took me forever to figure out a great gift for her! Now that I have it, I'm really excited to give it to her! She doesn't read my blog, but I still don't want to give the secret away yet, but I really want to tell. I'm giving it to her tonight :)

Today is December 11. I am exactly 14 weeks today, and I am due in exactly 6 months! I plan on taking a picture tonight of my growing belly. (I have also had this same plan every day for the past 2 weeks, so no promises!) Just yesterday I noticed a little growth spurt, and it is starting to become more noticeable in my everyday tops. We have a little Christmas thing for Lee's work on Saturday night, and I tried on what I was thinking about wearing the other night, just to make sure, and I'm glad that I did! Uh, I'm not sure if it's going to work! The top is a little too short now and it's kind of awkward with my maternity jeans, and especially with the fact that I still need the bella band to hold them up. As much as I like the maternity jeans I have, I think that they stretched out a little when I washed them. I think that my regular Gap jeans did that too. Oh well, I'll figure something out.

I kind of feel like we are in limbo with baby stuff. Even my doctor the other day was saying how it's kind of boring right now because we can't really plan anything! Haha, I didn't want to be the one to say it, but it kind of is! I've never pretended to be a patient person. This whole 6 more weeks until we can find out is killing me. I have NO idea how people wait to find out! I have NO idea how any of our parents did that! It would be one thing if we weren't planning on finding out the sex, because we could still decorate and stuff like that, but the baby's room will be VERY girly if it's a girl and much different from that if it's a boy, so really we have no choice but to wait! One thing that is hard for me to wait on is something that I want to make for the room. I know that I definitely want to hand paint letters for the baby's name. And I already have a ton of ideas on how I want to do them, so it's really hard for me not to start that! I mean, that's something that I could really start for either name, and just not use it yet if that's not what we're having, right? :) Who am I kidding, I wouldn't even have the energy to work on that right now even if I could!

My friend Jenny and I are having a baking party on Saturday!! I do a lot of baking for the holidays and I'm excited to get to share it with someone else this year, instead of just standing in the kitchen all by my lonesome like I have for the past couple of years. And then on Sunday, I think that Lee and I are going to do some Christmas shopping. I have planned on doing that the past couple of weekends, but I was too lazy, so this weekend we are definitely starting. And hopefully finishing! We are also going to look at kitchen cabinets. I think that we have decided that we will probably just redo the whole kitchen, contingent upon a couple of important things, but I think that it's going to work out! I'm hesitant to get too excited about it before we've made the absolute final decision, but I'm optimistic that it's going to happen!! Yay!

Thursday Mish-Mash

I am so bored today! It just feels like time is going by so slowly! I am REAL excited that tomorrow is Friday! Next week is my last full week of work for the year! Yippee!!! Then I'm off for almost 2 full weeks, which is so awesome!

Tomorrow Mary is coming into town and we are going to dinner and to see New Moon! I'm excited. I wanted to have the book read before, but I'm sad to say I've only read about 4 pages of it so far! And, as we all know, I am always disappointed by movies based on books so it's probably better this way. I also wanted to watch Twilight before, but I haven't done it yet! I have read that book. I think I read it in one day if you added it up. It's funny, but Lee gets annoyed when I read because I can never put a book down once I start.

This is a random question, but does anyone watch Survivor? I have watched every season since it started. This year is the best season ever!!! There is this really conniving guy, Russell and it is just so funny because he's so good at playing this game! He told everyone this huge lie about being in hurricane Katrina and losing everything, including his dog :( But in reality, he owns an oil and gas company and I'm sure that he is a multi-millionaire. (Although, don't get me wrong, I didn't agree that he lied about being in hurricane Katrina, I did think that was really wrong) Anyway, I just wondered if anyone else loves this season like I do.

So, I usually get up at least 3 times a night to go to the bathroom. I hate it! I hate to be disturbed while I'm sleeping, but I've gotten a little used to it since it's every night. We don't have a master bathroom, so I have to actually leave the bedroom and go into the bathroom just outside our door. Zoe gets up with me every.single.time. Sometimes she wants me to let her outside (which I actually rarely do because she just wants to run a lap, even in 9 degree weather), but most of the time she just comes into the bathroom with me and sits on the rug. One night last week, I got up to go and she didn't come with me, which was weird but I was more than half asleep so I don't think I even thought about it. Well, after I had been back in bed for about 5 minutes, I heard her barking. From the living room! She had gotten up and gone straight to the back door I guess and I never heard her! Haha, poor thing. So I got up and let her out and we went back to bed. Then last night, she got up with me and came into the bathroom and then she went back into the bedroom before me. I'm not sure how long I had been back in bed when I heard a little whining. Just for a minute. Then I heard it again. I knew it was Zoe but I couldn't figure out where she was or what she wanted. So I woke up Lee and I was like "Zoe is whining, where is she?" He got up and opened the bedroom door and she was just sitting in the hallway whining to be let in the bedroom! I had locked her out again!! I felt bad! She didn't bark or scratch at the door or anything except let out a tiny little whine! Aww :)

I am obsessed with the Potterybarn Reindeer dinnerware. Have you seen it?

I NEED every piece! There area lot more pieces than this. My absolute favorite are the juice glasses. They are clear and each has a different reindeer on it! They also have lots of serving ware to match! Every year I say that I'm going to buy it, but then I just can't justify it because it's soo expensive! I could just buy one thing per year and eventually I'd have it all, but that would require patience, something that I don't have. Plus, what if they started doing something different one year, then it wouldn't all match!

And then the other day, I was in Potterybarn Kids, and I saw the reindeer pattern in big graphic prints! I REALLY want these:Aren't they adorable?! I mean, just look at Vixen. Clearly that plate would be reserved for me each year.

I am also obsessed with Ann Taylor Loft. We finally got one a couple of years back and I LOVE everything in there. I randomly went in yesterday and they were having a buy one get one sale on sweaters! So obviously I had to get two. I got this waffle sweater, in brown:

It's cuter in real life, and in brown. It has little pockets and it's so soft. I also got an adorable cardigan, but I don't see it anywhere online. It has this little flower detail on it, and the buttons are jeweled. :) I get really excited when I go shopping because I have really cut back on it in the past few years.

Oh so remember my when it rains it pours post? Well, last night, Lee was messing around under the kitchen sink. I thought that he was just opening the cabinet doors because it was going to be in the single digits overnight and he didn't want the pipes to freeze. Well, as he usually does, he started poking and prodding around and the next thing I know, he's going to Lowes for a new section of pipe! I knew it was bad then because, while he is good at many things, being a Mr Fix-It is not one of them. So I just pretended like it wasn't happening. About an hour later he was on the phone with a plumber because one of the pipes just broke in half. Yep, I knew it! In his defense, from what little I saw it looked like all the pipes were rusted, and in all actuality we are probably lucky that we found out that way than when the pipes burst and we had a huge mess in the kitchen. But still. So today, Lee spent about 3 hours with this very... interesting plumber that we have used before. He's a nice guy, but SO SLOW and he loves OU football and always spends most of his time talking sports with Lee. And he always charges us a random amount that he seems to just pull out of thin air. Today, he told Lee an amount, and Lee wrote him a check, then the guy was like, "Oh no! It's ten dollars more than that!" Haha, whatever, he fixed the pipes so that's all that matters. He can have his ten dollars.

Okay, I've wasted enough of your time. There's a few minutes of your life you won't get back :)

Apparently I can NEVER spell 'because', and BL spoiler, just in case!

Thank you for listening to my whining the other day! Sometimes it just makes you feel better to get it out, even if you're still stuck trying to figure out what to do.

Yay, I'm glad people have been voting! I'm actually surprised that so many people think it's a girl! Lee said everyone at his office thinks that too! We went to the dr yesterday and heard the heartbeat again! That is so fun. I mean, I obviously know that there's a baby in there, but it just seems so much more real when you hear the heartbeat. While we were listening, the dr moved the little thing around, trying to get it louder, and for a minute, it sounded like there were TWO heartbeats and she just stayed there for a minute, and I almost freaked out. It must have just been the way she was moving the little wand around, but I am NOT prepared for two babies at once, thank you very much!! Lee's mom is a twin, and things seem to always happen to us in pairs, so we would always talk about how we wouldn't be surprised if we ever had twins. But, then I did some research and apparently, the twin gene would be more likely to have passed to his sister than to him, because it passes more easily to females. Just a fun fact for you all :)

We will find out the sex on January 19th! The girl scheduling us asked what time we wanted to be there between 8 and noon and I was like EIGHT AM!! And I asked for the u/s tech that I like, just to make sure that we don't get stuck with the first one we had who scared the crap out of me and made me think that something was wrong.

The other day we went to Babies R Us. It was Lee's first time ever in there, not really surprising, but still I thought it was funny. I worked there for a little while in high school, and although it is set up a lot differently, it always smells exactly the same. We were there to purchase the gifts for Lee's co-workers baby shower, but it was so hard for me to stay focused on that. I kept wandering all over the aisles seeing things I liked or wanted. I wanted to look at all the car seats and strollers and swings! That stuff is just so much fun! Lee was probably annoyed with me and kept dragging me back so that we could actually get out of there before they closed. I seriously could have walked around the entire store. Twice :) The next day I told Lee that we need to go back sometime soon! I'm sure that he was excited to hear that.

Did you watch the Biggest Loser last night?! It was a really good finale! I am going to talk about it so don't read this if you haven't watched it yet! I was really rooting for Amanda to win the whole thing, but when she came out, it was clear that she wasn't going to. Don't get me wrong, she looked great, but there is always such a drastic change in the winner. Oh my gosh, when Tracey came out, I was shocked. Yes, she was very thin, which is great and all. But, she looked really old or something, I don't know, something was off with her face. And kind of her hair. I think it's because she is not a nice person. She's not. And what was with the bones sticking out on her shoulders? That was gross. I was really mad that she was leading the at home players. When Shay got up to weigh in and got so emotional because everyone was cheering so hard for her, I told Lee that that is what the show is about, not the money which is all Tracey cared about. She did not deserve to win. But when Rebecca came out, we had to rewind it to make sure we saw correctly!! When she beat Tracey's percentage I screamed I was so excited! I was really glad that Danny won, he looked so great. AND he's from my hometown of Broken Arrow! Yay! When they showed him driving around in the next to last episode, I kept trying to figure out where he was and where is neighborhood was! Haha. I'm also excited to see Shay at the next finale, I love her. Oh, and when Abby came out, we didn't even recognize her! She looked really good. I mean, they all did, but you know.

I am always so amazed at how thin everyone's faces look at the finale! I mean everyone's face looked so thin! It's just crazy to me that they can lose so much weight in such a relatively short period of time. And I really like that the show focuses so much on exercise and not on starving yourself. I've seen Bob and Jillian yell at the contestants because they don't eat enough sometimes. I'm already ready for the next season!

We did not watch the show while eating brownies and ice cream. No, we would never eat junk food while watching a weight loss show.

When it rains, it pours

Hi! Happy Monday! 10.5 more work days until my Christmas vacation! :)

You might have noticed that I put a survey to the right of the blog, so that you can guess whether the baby is a boy or girl! Please vote, I'm really interested to see what you all think!

Let's just have a little recap of the crap Lee and I have dealt with the past couple of months. You know, just for fun :)

In October, I got into the car accident. (Which, btw, was the day after I found out I was pregnant. I couldn't mention it then but I think it made it so much worse) Then, our garage door broke. That was an easy fix, but we still had to call people to come out, and we had to pay them. Then, the soap holder fell out of the shower wall. And when Lee went to fix it, the backer board fell out too so now we have a huge hole in the tile and we need a professional to fix it because I'm not messing with it! Which might not sound like a big deal, but my dad freaked me out about how they might have to rip part of the wall out and blah blah basically we would have to gut out bathroom if what he said was right. And then last week, our kitchen cabinet door freaking broke apart! Not just fell off, I mean broke into pieces and we have to get a new door. Trouble is, we are pretty sure that our kitchen cabinets were hand made by someone. And I don't mean a professional, if you get my gist. They are crap. So basically, we have to buy all new cabinet doors or all new cabinets.

Yes. So. All of that, plus everything that we already needed to do before the baby gets here (in a perfect world) it's really just all getting to me. If we planned on staying at our house forever, or even for a while, it wouldn't be such a big deal to get new cabinets for the kitchen. (um, it's small friends) But, we are only planning on staying there for another 2 years, max, so I don't want to put a bunch of money into the house just to sell it and not get the money back. Boo. Sometimes being a grown up isn't so much fun. I kind of just want Lee to say that we should just get new cabinets. That would make my life easier. Because we were planning on redoing pretty much everything except getting new cabinets. I was just going to repaint them with a fresh coat of white. And even though we are only going to be there a couple more years, having new cabinets would make those years a lot more enjoyable. (I'm in the kitchen a lot, usually, not so much these days :) ) But then you get into things like what if we get the cabinets out and find something wrong and what if we ended up having to get new flooring because right now it's a linoleum sheet that is laid around the existing cabinets and what if it just ends up being a big money pit and we end up having to do so much more than we anticipated?! Ugh!! I don't know!!! Can someone just tell me what do do? That would be great. Thanks.

Oh! And I think that there is a mouse under our stove. Yes. I know, gross. We had a minor issue with that the first winter we lived there. We knew about it only because of the dogs. The wouldn't leave the kitchen and freaked out about the stove. Well, Zoe was in the kitchen the other night by herself and started barking and running all over by the stove and sticking her nose under the stove. Then she came to get Lee. It was funny, I swear it was like Lassie. She stared at him and he got up and she kept running forward but looking back at him to make sure he was coming. Then she stood in front of the stove. I don't deal with mice well. I might have cried when this all happened. Might have. We know a good exterminator, but still. It's disgusting. Please don't judge me becuase we have a mouse, I swear I'm clean! :)

Umm, I also swear that we don't live in a dump! Haha, I just re-read what I wrote and it sounds like we live in some dilapidated shack, but we really don't. It's just an old house. There's just lots of things that you wouldn't notice if you didn't live there and if you weren't an obsessive compulsive perfectionist like I am. Maybe I should stop talking crap about it and it things would stop falling apart!

Let's start the Christmas countdown!!

13. 5 more days until I'm off for almost 2 weeks for Christmas!! I like to count down to things.

I feel like I haven't been on here in forever! But in reality it's only been a week! I would love to blog every day, but my life is pretty monotonous lately.

We had a good Thanksgiving. It would have been better if some certain people wouldn't have been here. Sad, but true. I will just give you some highlights of Wednesday night and Thursday:

- Father in law repeatedly told us that he knows the baby is a boy. Repeatedly. As in over and over. I yelled at him. Lee backed me up.

- Mother in law repeatedly asked us where she was going to stay when she comes to visit the baby. Repeatedly. As in over and over. Lee told her there is a hotel down the street. He was not kidding.

- FIL asked me when he gets to hold his grandson. I told him that he knows the due date.

- I got to hear that FIL had a vasectomy. At the dinner table. That is a true story.

- MIL told me about 500 times that "babies are so special" and that they "melt into you" and then she would close her eyes and mimic holding a baby and just stand there for a minute. What in the hell am I supposed to say to that?

- I was told numerous times that "this time next year you'll be holding your baby". Really? Gosh, I hadn't even thought of that. So you mean that this baby is going to eventually come out?! Crazy.

- I was accosted when the in laws arrived at our house. I am weird about people touching or hugging me. I don't hug people. Well, sometimes, if I really like you :) I don't even hug my own parents that much, if ever. It was disturbing, and worse than ever because I'm pregnant. And with that combined with everything else throughout the night, I was in tears by the time we all went to bed. The next morning Lee asked them to back off of me. They did, but then they wanted to hold my hand when they left. Awkward. I'd rather fake hug you.

- I spent all day Wednesday making appetizers because FIL gets out of sorts when we have to wait until 1:30 or 2 for lunch on holidays. So I set them all out on Thanksgiving, and Lee kept telling him to go and eat something, but he was grumpy and refused to eat. Then, as I'm pulling the rolls out of the oven (that's the last thing we make, so lunch was ready) MIL comes into the kitchen and says that FIL "needs a piece of cheese". That's what he always wants when he's mad because food isn't ready. I almost lost it and I said that was why I made all of those appetizers! Lee and I discussed it, and if they are here for a holiday ever again, then I'm just buying FIL a package of Kraft singles and he can have that.

Haha, okay, I'll stop now, but that was basically how our holiday went. I pretty much stayed holed up in the kitchen all day Thursday. We were sooo relieved when the in laws decided to leave on Thursday night. Lee did a happy dance when they left. It's so hard because I really do want to include them in things, even if I don't sound like it. And it always seems harmless to invite them to stay with us and whatnot for holidays, but as soon as they get here, we are reminded of why we always say we won't do it again. Anyway, we are both relieved that they are going to Alaska for Christmas :)

On the pregnancy front, I am doing much better overall. I have a lot more energy and the morning sickness is pretty much gone. It has been replaced with some really bad heartburn, but I've discovered how delicious the berry flavored Tums are so it's not so bad :) I am also really thirsty all the time. Like I feel like I'm dehydrated thirsty. But I can't drink a lot at a time or it makes me really sick so I just have to take little drinks all the time. I am 13 weeks this week! I need to take a picture and post it! I have one from last week, but you can definitely tell a difference this week. You can tell the baby is moving up, although I thought that when the baby moved up I wouldn't have to pee every 10 minutes. Haha.

We have a dr appt next week, and we are really hoping that when we schedule the following appt, that will be when we can find out the sex! I would be around 18 weeks then. We are really anxious to find out! Well, mostly I am really anxious! We've already picked out the furniture and bedding, different styles of each, so one for boy and one for girl. AND I think that we have decided on names for both too :) That is huge because I thought we would never 1) find anything that I liked so much that I would actually name a human being that for the rest of their life! and 2) both actually agree on the names!! I will admit that I am pushing for the boy name, but I think that Lee is getting there with it. We do have a feeling as to what the baby is, but I'm not saying until we find out. I need to do a little poll or something to see what you guys all think!

I was talking to my parents about it the other day and showing them the bedding and furniture. They told me that when my brother and I were born, they weren't able to find out the sex before! Apparently they didn't have the technology. I didn't know that. I would have gone crazy!! But then again, my parents also didn't know that you are pregnant for 40 weeks, they thought 9 months times 4 weeks! Haha, I was dumbfounded when my dad was confused about this little countdown thing we gave them. I was like, you guys have 2 kids, how do you not know that?!

Okay, I'm going to try and not make every post a pregnancy post, but that is really all that's going on in life right now, so I can't make any promises.